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In two days, I will be the mother of an eleven year old. I can't believe it. I am not old enough to have a child that age! the thought is mind boggeling. And if you can't tell, it's freaking me out a bit. My first born, my baby, my "taydee" is growing up!!! Bad enough she starts middle school this fall, but the girl is already getting her curves too!!! she looks like she should be starting high school!! I could cry. And yet, I am soo proud of her! I am proud of the the person she is, the choices she makes (most of the time) and i LOVE her soo much. I'll have to add more later, off to do a million other things now.

of all the.............

at my house, we start chores young, here is mary, learning to run from the laundry. i didn't say we started doing them well, sometimes the learing is in avoidance rather than completion!!

as with housework, the learning of the yardwork is started young too, this is my niece kelcey, learning to weed the path to grandma's house, unfortunatly for grandma, the only "weeds" she pulled were the pretty red flowered ones.

at the end of a hard day's work, you just gotta relaxe and show how you feel about it all!!!



i can't believe that my mary is almost 1. it doesn't seem like that much time has gone by, crazy.

I LOVE this picture!!! We couldn't spend Easter at home with Eric, he has to work every holiday, so we packed up and went to the Freemont Indian State Park where he works. They have this awsome kids zone and we ended up spending all day there. Megan and Dustin brought their girls down, and we just played. This picture is looking down the ladder of the pithouse they have made for the kids to get in, it took about 20 shots to get all the girls looking up, but it was worth it!

I don't have any professional pictures of Mary, but this one turned out pretty good. It's down in side the pithouse with all the animal skins.

Easter at Grandma Jackie's is always with ALL the kids, Brittney Ellie, Hailey Kd Dalton, Alyse Makayla and Aubrey, Mattisyn Kelcey Claire and Mary, (not all in the Picture of course) colored eggs and had a ball.

Mary's first easter egg hunt. She thought it was a Great thing to eat the plastic eggs!

Our family, Easter 2009.

like sand through the hour glass, and so on

Wow, does time just slip away. I started this blog with every intention of at least weekly updates, humm, we all can see how that worked out for me. Oh well, better late than never right?
I am sitting here in silence. KD and Ellie are at school, granted tomorrow is the last day of that for the summer, Mom is out (suppring but true) and Eric is at work, and Mary decieded to take a nap, wonders never cease. I relieze how much I count on the maddness that is my family to fill in the gaps in my days. It's hard when the Dr.'s won't give me a date I can go back to work, stupid back.
Mary has learned to crawl, it's hard for me to believe how big she is getting. I look at her and see my KD baby ten years ago and it makes me want to cry. It's said to you a million times a day to not blink, they grow so fast, and it's hard when that realization slaps you in the face. In my next blink KD and Ellie will be done with school and Mary will be ten. How grateful I am to Heavenly Father to have blessed me with my beautiful children. And how I can't wait for the milestones of growth to come, and at the same time dread them as it takes my babies farther away from me.
Eric's job is at least something he enjoys. That's about all the good that can be said for it. It's less than a third of the pay we had, no benefit's and no hope of advancement. kinda sucky, but a job these days is a job. He's doing maintance at a state park and loving it. He likes being outside and it is a nice place, but still, it leaves us living with Mom and not knowing when we will be able to get out. And life just goes on.

Getting ready

I get to go to Kansas!! I get to go to Kansas!! I an sooo very excited! I feel like a kid getting ready for christmas. And yet, i wonder, should we be going? Is it wise to spend the money to go visit friends when we are forced to live with my mom? I don't know, and I can't care. I have to let myself have something for my sanity. My husband can't find a job here, and we are going to look while on our vacation, so maybe it is okay to go. I don't know, i tend to over think things. On the plus side, i found a job. It's not much, but it's at least a little income, and i love doing it. I am going to wait tables. Sounds funny, with all the things i can do, to choose to wait tables, but it makes me happy, and right now, i need happy.
so until then, Kansas here i come.

New

Aren't we silly as adults? Kids get all excited for Christmas and all the new wonderful things they can get then. Us? we get all excited at tax time (if we get some money back that is) and all the wonderful things we can do with the return. Eric and I went today with our fun money (that is the part we get to keep after all the grown up stuff is done with the rest) and bought new cell phones. So what have I been doing all day? Me, the person who says she only wants a cell phone to make and recieve calls? I have been playing with all the cool gadgets on this stupid thing! And I am having fun doing it! Ring tones, wall papers, call lists oh my! you would think that this was the neatest thing next to sliced bread. Silly I know, but i can't seem to help it. The funny thing is, I guess I am soooo very excited about it that it's rubbed off on the kids and THEY want to play with it too! But I just say no, and go back to pushing buttons, they leave their nintendo DS's and gameboys and mp3's and all their cool stuff and want to play with mom's phone. It makes me laugh.
On another note, I get to go to KANSAS!! I am so stoked! I feel kinda guilty about spending money to take the kids out of school and drive half way across the country, but i am doing it anyway. Besides, Eric can always look for work out there and I get to see Becci. I figure that we have no job right now, and if it weren't for this little room in my mothers house, we would be homeless to, so we might as well do something to bring some fun back into this family. It's been a very stressful few months, and it's starting to show on the girls, on Eric and on me. I haven't left the house for 2 weeks before today, and i don't usually just sit. It's getting kinda scary, worse than i want to admit, so i am going to take a road trip and try to find my mind again.

in the beginning.......

Well, you have to start somewhere, so I may as well start here. Blogging is easy right? i guess we will see. Telling stories about my family, even i can do that. My kids keep me laughing all day, when they don't have me pulling my hair out. I know that as time goes, these little blurbs about us will get longer, but for now, Mary is snoring (finally, thank you daddy!!) and i need to go to bed to. KD and Ellie have been out for an hour now, so it's time to get some sleep myself, besides, my best friend is waiting for me and me haven't talked much today anyway.


Good night